I don't think Tony realized how much he cared about Coulson until the Avengers, and then Coulson died and he was like "WELL FUCK" and now... camp is happening. SO THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF GOING ON WITH HIM RE:COULSON LET ME MAKE A LIST.
1. Coulson is not dead. This is... cool. Except it might mean someone lied to him. MOST LIKELY FURY and god if it turns out Fury lied to them to manipulate them so many tables are getting thrown.
2. Coulson and Loki. Tony makes himself angry by thinking of Tony and Coulson interacting, he... rationally, can sort of understand why both Coulson and Clint have been amicable towards Loki, he knows they've been trapped with him for a year and he knows that being openly hostile would have ended up badly for everyone. BUT he doesn't understand why this has continued, Tony figures that with him and cap they could if not beat Loki, at least be enough of a deterrent so Coulson and Clint could cut all ties.
He also hates HAAATES Coulson's reasoning. "OH LOKI HASN'T KILLED ANYONE IN A YEAR IT'S FINE GUYS" In Tony's view Loki is a criminal and a mass murderer and he needs to be locked up forever, so every time BUT IT'S BEEN A YEAR comes up he just wants to shoot Loki in the face. He's also very annoyed by people telling him to stay away from Loki, because he suspects very very strongly that if Loki attacks him, people will blame him for it. As if "Loki is insane" excuses random violent behavior.
3. TONY'S PTSD. Tony still hasn't quite forgiven Coulson for pushing him super early on, it's not something he feels like addressing at all even though he understands that Coulson pushed him out of concern and knows Coulson does what he thinks is best. HE'S LESS WARY NOW since Coulson seems to have decided to let him deal with it his own way. (And by dealing with it I mean slowly fall into an inability to function like a person.)
4. BARNES!11 This is actually a point he's pretty satisfied with. HE USED LOGIC ON COULSON AND IT WORKED OKAY YAY. He's happy Coulson told him things and he's glad everyone seems to be less tense about it.
IDK WHAT ELSE HAS HAPPENED. Tony sees Coulson as one of his people and he gets protective of people who fall into that category. But also he doesn't know how to have an actual friendship with Coulson, before camp their relationship was strictly professional and I imagine they didn't see each other very often so this... having Coulson as a constant presence in his life isn't something Tony knows how to handle.
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I don't think Tony realized how much he cared about Coulson until the Avengers, and then Coulson died and he was like "WELL FUCK" and now... camp is happening. SO THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF GOING ON WITH HIM RE:COULSON LET ME MAKE A LIST.
1. Coulson is not dead. This is... cool. Except it might mean someone lied to him. MOST LIKELY FURY and god if it turns out Fury lied to them to manipulate them so many tables are getting thrown.
2. Coulson and Loki. Tony makes himself angry by thinking of Tony and Coulson interacting, he... rationally, can sort of understand why both Coulson and Clint have been amicable towards Loki, he knows they've been trapped with him for a year and he knows that being openly hostile would have ended up badly for everyone. BUT he doesn't understand why this has continued, Tony figures that with him and cap they could if not beat Loki, at least be enough of a deterrent so Coulson and Clint could cut all ties.
He also hates HAAATES Coulson's reasoning. "OH LOKI HASN'T KILLED ANYONE IN A YEAR IT'S FINE GUYS" In Tony's view Loki is a criminal and a mass murderer and he needs to be locked up forever, so every time BUT IT'S BEEN A YEAR comes up he just wants to shoot Loki in the face. He's also very annoyed by people telling him to stay away from Loki, because he suspects very very strongly that if Loki attacks him, people will blame him for it. As if "Loki is insane" excuses random violent behavior.
3. TONY'S PTSD. Tony still hasn't quite forgiven Coulson for pushing him super early on, it's not something he feels like addressing at all even though he understands that Coulson pushed him out of concern and knows Coulson does what he thinks is best. HE'S LESS WARY NOW since Coulson seems to have decided to let him deal with it his own way. (And by dealing with it I mean slowly fall into an inability to function like a person.)
4. BARNES!11 This is actually a point he's pretty satisfied with. HE USED LOGIC ON COULSON AND IT WORKED OKAY YAY. He's happy Coulson told him things and he's glad everyone seems to be less tense about it.
IDK WHAT ELSE HAS HAPPENED. Tony sees Coulson as one of his people and he gets protective of people who fall into that category. But also he doesn't know how to have an actual friendship with Coulson, before camp their relationship was strictly professional and I imagine they didn't see each other very often so this... having Coulson as a constant presence in his life isn't something Tony knows how to handle.